(No Ms. Eaton, this has nothing to do with you in any way, this was written a while ago, just so happens i am posting it today. just in case u feel like its directed to you)
So today's quick lesson will be on desire. With all the things that our hearts desire and seek, it can be quite confusing to know what you desire, versus whats just in front of you. In relationship terms, sometimes you desire someone else so much, you express that lust with whoever is in front of you or will give you the time of day, even if its more than one person. That can be quite confusing and damaging to the body and soul. Its definitely a translucent torment that you alone can attest to its emotional weight and pain. The pain caused by trying to hold it in your hands, but its too much of a heavy load to carry on your own. So you release it to others in the hopes they can relieve some of the stress.
That is a battle i had in my mind and heart and I see it clear as mountain fresh water. Its not fair to the person you express it with, even though i know its just like opening a valve, it can relieve so much bottled up pressure. The remedy is to just simply reveal your desire to the intended person and let it go. Because its not the fact that you want them that drives you insane, its typically the idea that you "could" be with them. it is definitely a living fantasy that just grows more in depth and vivid the longer it stays solely in your heart and not on the listening ears of the intended audience. Yes it will hurt if they say "no," but it feels a lot better than assuming its "yes."
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